I am Angry at Myself
I so sorry to hear that you are in pain and that you are angry with yourself.
At a time like this you need to take inventory of you. Answer these questions:
Why am I angry at me?
Do I need to change my behavior?
Lord, I lay any sin or wrongdoing down at your feet, please forgive me. Lord, also, give me the strength to forgive myself. I am willing to forgive myself, help me to let go.
Then whatever you'd like to change about yourself, work toward changing. Whatever you have to accept -- appearance. bank balance, grumpy boss, overweight spouse*, irritable children... etc., ask for strength to accept.
Pray this: Lord, I give you these things I can't change. Turn them into good for you, me and your kingdom. I lay them at your feet.
God promises that all things work for the good of those who love Him, and I believe that applies even to things we can't change. For example, I cannot change my daughter's disabilities. However, God has shown me that He had given my disabled child a joyful spirit. I have learned to be proud of her for who she is and stop fretting about who she's not.
You need to do the same thing for you. There are some things you can change. For example, if you drink too much, you can join Alcoholics Anonymous and get help. If you're forty pounds overweight, you can change the way you eat and add exercise to your life. If you have affairs outside of marriage, you can stop. Do what you can -- but do it through God's strength.
Pray, dear Lord, please give me the strength to change in these areas:______
Give me grace and mercy to follow through. And if I fall down, help me to stand back up and keep trying in and through You.
You know, I think you are a wonderful person. I KNOW how much God loves you -- so much that He sent His son to die in your place. You are going to make it. Just ask God to direct your path. One day, this dark time will be behind you. You will dance in the light!
P.S. If you are at risk to harm yourself, please go to the hospital, call 911, or call
1800 - SUICIDE
Suicide Prevention Hotline:
National Suicide Hotline:
*overweight spouse -- It is God's plan that we keep the spouse we married. However, there are circumstances when we need to practice tough love -- if you spouse is cheating or you, then your spouse is putting you at risk for venereal disease. You may need to separate from your spouse. If your spouse is verbally or physically battering you, then you may need to get to a safe place. However, if you spouse is just plain boring, then you need to work at putting some life back into you, and into your marriage. God's blessings!
More Thoughts: Do you go to church anywhere? If not, find a church.
Talk to the pastor and tell him how you are feeling. But most of all, keep doing
the next thing. I'm not promising that you will not have losses, but keep praying,
seeking God, and His direction. Keep your head high in this storm and one day,
it will pass. The sun will shine again. And this dark period of your life will
be behind you. There is hope Jeremiah 29: 11 - 13 says "For I know the
plans I have for you, declares the Lord,...plans to give you hope and a future....
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
Keep seeking, keep walking, and God will see you through this.
In the meantime, please go get a check up from your doctor and tell him how you are feeling. If you think you are at risk for suicide, please go to the hospital or call 911. Do not do anything to harm yourself, you are going to make it. A really good book on this is Where is God When it Hurts by Phillip Yancey. God is going to see you through this dear one. Please, please do not do anything to hurt yourself.
You are going to make it. I'm praying for you. God is going to see you through this dear one. Please, please do not do anything to hurt yourself. Wait on God. In the meantime, if thoughts of suicide get too heavy, go to the hospital or call 911. Call your doctor as well.
Here's what I recommend to you:
1. We need other believers for encouragement. Find a church home. See if you can find a small Bible study of people in your age range. Call some of the bigger churches in your area and see if they have anything to offer for your age group. This could be a home Bible study or a Sunday school class. CLICK ONE OF THE FOLLOWING TO FIND A CHURCH: Evangelical Free Church, Lutheran ELCA , any , any , Presbyterian , any Christian , Assemblies of God , Mennonite , any Bible believing , for travelers , Christian , Methodist ,
2. Listen to inspirational music. There's a lot of Christian music in
different styles. Maybe you've got a great Christian radio station in your area
or maybe you can find one on the web that plays a style of Christian music that
speaks to you like http://www.klove.com/listen/.
You can also go to a Christian bookstore and listen to their CDs until you find
something that helps you to feel worshipful.
3. Take time to read the Bible. If you don't have a Bible, there are versions available on the web that you can download. Gospel Book of John
4. Read the book, Purpose Driven Life. This is a great Bible study and you need to have the Word in your life every day.
5. Take our New Believer Bible Study. CLICK HERE: What do you do next?
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Don't do anything to harm yourself. You are so loved. Please give your situation time, please allow God time to move. He may be waiting for you to give in to Him, to say, God I will trust you, no matter what. Try trusting God and see what will happen.
Also, please go in for a medical checkup and tell your doctor about how you feel emotionally. Your doctor may have medications that can help you get over this 'bump' in the road.
Also, I highly recommend counseling. You may find a pastor in your church or other local church or some other professional who will understand and help you with your struggles.
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P.S.S. If you are at risk to harm yourself, please go to the hospital, call
911, or call
1800 - SUICIDE
Suicide Prevention Hotline:
National Suicide Hotline:
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